I FEEL LIKE SHiiiiTTTT!!

Well...these days...Life is getting tougher...
Things have changed...
If only I was given an opportunity to like shine at doing something I really wanted to..
For money and a better life...
I'll give up all these IT crap, pack my bags and off I'll go...

Will update my blog soon!

Nobody says a word here...

You're smart HELLO!..

You're not so smart GOODBYE!...

I feel like a TRASH..seriously... :(

IMPERFECT. FLAWS.

Well...my friends might tell me...
I m GREAT.PERFECT.PRETTY.HOT.GORGEOUS.
But...I think I have flaws and I m imperfect...
Sometimes I don't even know if I could fix it myself...




Well...lately, I've just got my heart cracked a little bit...
Like what the F?...
Its such a sad feeling when...
We both liked each other but...
I understood his reasons...
But, yeah..he is a really nice boy...




A boy who never cared about how a girl looks
Only her attitudes matter to him...
I don't see much of these types around...
Mostly I see guys go for erm....
(hot hot,pretty pretty girls)
You get what I mean...
He really beats all the guys I used to like on this matter...




Last two weeks, my second semester started...
I thought that nowadays...
I m drifting away from my friends as days passed....
I felt really sad....
I sit alone.Eat alone.Walk everywhere alone.
Basically everything alone la...
Maybe I m just not good enough or even smart enough...
To mingle with them.. :(
I dont know myself...






What I really bother now is finishing my Foundation...
And get lost from that history land...
I know where I belong...
And its here at home...




Okay...Its been a long time since I really blogged about F1..
Formula One that is!
Yes..I m a girl...
I wear miniskirts,put make-up...dress up...
But I do love Formula One racing...and of course football...


My favourite driver...
Kimi Raikkonen...
The hottest and cutest driver around...
This was after Michael Schumacher left Scuderia Ferrari...
He was a LEGEND...
Seven-years of world champion...
But not as hot or cute as Kimi...lol

KIMI!!! Isn't he hot?

*Cool*

Well..during the last Brazilian Grand Prix..

Which Kimi failed to win cuz...

He almost got second place but failed to hitting Webber's car's ass...

But that doesn't mean I dislike him...LOL

I discovered a very very talented and awesome driver...

That kept helding Jenson Button behind him...

Drum ROLLLLL!!!

He is Kamui Kobayashi!!!

A brilliant Japanese driver....

Not that cute though but a good driver...

It's him...

Well...Jenson thought that Kobayashi was actually blocking him from overlapping...

But he was wrong...

Come on Jenson...

Just cuz you can't overlap someone...

It doesn't meant that they are getting in your way...

That's all for Formula 1 racing guys!!

Lol...

Prince charming is still somewhere out there...

Bestie said flirt and dont fall for boys so deeply..

So..you would not get your heart broken....

ISOLATED?! OR JUST LONELY..

Things have changed a lot these days...
Even before the finals were over...

Slowly...as days passed...
I m drifted away from my friends...
I don't know how?What?Why?....

I come to campus alone. Left alone. Walk everywhere alone.
Eat alone. Sit alone in class...Most of the time...

I just wondered...I m being isolated cuz I m not as SMART as them...or what?
Or I m just supposed to be lonely...
I feel much much better at home in Sungai Long..
Cuz there's nobody here to listen.chat or even eat with me?...

There's one!
But that person tak pernah CARED!
So...dont expect me to talk to you!

Well...I gotta go...now..
Going to the night market ALONE...
To get something to eat...

PS: I disliked being called out to write answers on the board...Especially things I dont know how to solve. :'(

Everything!

Okay....
I m gonna blog properly now...
Since I m like bored to death...


One of my bestie, Joey came home for her Raya Break and so did I...
After Raya Break was my finals...
Such a GREAT timing I know!




I decided to go out with Joey aka May Wei...
We went nearby saja...
Jusco Cheras Selatan cuz bus fare naik already..
RM3 to go KL...
So went to Jusco...
Had pizza for lunch and watch "The Ugly Truth"..
She taught me some Physics stuff...


After that..we went to the ladies first..
Cuz we were already late for the movie...


"The Ugly Truth" was really good...
I totally loved it....
Especially when she was jumping happily when she got the Doctor to be her date...
Damn cute!!


After the movie...
We went to McD to have ice-cream...


Then he headed to the bus stand...
It was raining heavily and Rapid BUS was nowhere to be seen...
LOL...
We were bored...Just talking away...

The shot I took...

Joey & Me(I wish it was BF but too bad I don't have one)

The other day, I did called her to my crib again...

For Physics of course...

Sometimes...I just really regret taking IT...

But its no point crying over spilt milk...

Went out with the other besties to Damansara side...

Strolling around The Curve and Cineleisure...

Ikea and Ikano...

When all of a sudden Casey showed up...

Just pics...

Evonne & Me

Sheena braided my hair and made me looked like a Roman Goddess :P

The besties!<3

After that...Balik rumah...

I was so effing tired....

Cuz we strolled the whole day...

Okay...then balik Malacca...

For finals...

Well...finals was a pain in the ass...really

On Wednesday after Physics paper...

Merdeka! lol

Cepat went back to the place I stayed and packed up...

Took the 7pm bus home...

Rang up my bestie Joey to have little chat before I dozed of in the bus...

Dad picked me up at Puduraya...

Came home tapi sudah mau K.O.

And I was invited to Kev's play..

Arthur Kopit's (Oh Dad, Poor Dad)

It was lovely and awesome....

Kev was acting in it too...

He was awesome too :)

I just love dramas and plays...

Talking about someone who does a little of scriptwriting in high school for her own plays...

Though sometimes I find it hard to come up with a story or whether to have a happy, sad or a left to solved ending...lol

Okay..

I'll let the pics do the talking...

This was how much fun we had....

Just me, Sheena & Gloria...

Sheena chopped her hair off...

But she didnt chose to actually...

We went hanging at Damansara again before we left for the play since Sheena needed to get some things...

 

In the fitting room...Gloria..me and Sheena...(Sheena's hot)

Sheena and her new shoes :)

Me and Gloria <3

KLPAC @ Sentul Park (very pretty)

Sheena & Gloria <3

Me & Sheena babe :D

Gloria and meee :D

The Park

Somewhere around the park

=)

Gloria

Hot kan?

On the swing :P

This seat is painful..lol XD

Gloria modelling untuk apa ni?...lols..seducing betul XD

<3 this shot eventhough Gloria's head got cut a lil' bit

candid shot...

:D

The ticket!

And now...

Pics from the play!

Enjoy!

 

Its Kevin!! The guy shadow.. :D

The fish

The venus traps

THE END.

After that, we balik rumah...

Finally finished blogging....

Wee....

Lol...

But its not like the whole story la..

So much to say...

So little time....

That was how much fun I had...

Why do you wanna teman me?

You have a girlfriend...

Who thinks that I m a threat...

Sorry heals nothing ..

Just Hanging!

Well...
I went out today..since I couldnt go out to pasar malam the night before...
One of my bestie, Gloria had her test the following day which was yesterday...


So..she asked me out to Taman Connaught near her university...
They have pasar malam every Wednesday night....
I have second thoughts of going since SOMEONE whom I haven't spoke to for about a month or so...
Was coming too...


But I went for Kev and Gloria... :D
Met at Fireball...a place for billiard..
Played 2 games...
I didnt wanted to but just because they insisted...


Hmm....
Sometimes...I m just too nice...
My heart just told me to try let go...
And I didnt communicate with HIM in any way...
Cuz I felt that no matter what I do or say...
Nothing will happen and I just sakitkan my own hati...


And we were on MSN this morning...
Just chatting though I thought I shouldn't...

But I guess I'd rather not put anything up...
Since, SOME people that reads my blog...
Might be someone who anti-Niesha...liking this boy...

And we went...to the pasar..after pool game..
Pool was fun but I m kinda embarassed when I don't even know how to play...
Walked all the way up and down the pasar malam...
Ate fried kuey teow and bought some stuff...


Went back to the park near Kev's house....
Sat there and chatted....
HE played the guitar...
I think HE'S really good though he don't take any theory classes...
Talented :)

I just came home around 11pm...
Now...I m blogging...
And going to sleep now...


GOODNIGHT!

PS: Will blog properly..PROMISE!

I think I can't have you already...

Though you're just so perfect....

Maybe I didn't wanna talk to you...

Cuz I was afraid of getting myself hurt again...

I M BACKKKKK!!

Gosh!


I have a sored eye recently when I went back to Malacca on the first day of my finals exam...
I dont know why does it always have to happen at one of the important thing in my life...


Okay...Three days later...
Here am I...
At home...
Finals was over yesterday after 4.30pm...
Semester 1 was over!


But I m still worried about my papers...


Alright...
I m not sure where to actually start since I have neglected this blog for quite some time...
I'll find something to blog about..

Hee..


PS: Going to naik BUKIT after months...!! I cant wait!

!!!

DEPRESSION IS TAKING OVER ME.

PHYSICS AND MATHS ARE KILLING ME *FAINTS*

CAN'T WAIT FOR FINALS TO END.
I WANNA PASS EVERY PAPER I M TAKING.


DEAR GOD,
PLEASE HELP ME..

nothing is impossible...

just try and always keep trying until the end of time...